Title:  If The Walls Could Speak
Release Date:  June 24, 2014
Format:  EP
Record Label:  Hourglass Independent Records
Available On:  Download
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1 - The Intro
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Positive controversy
The following program you are about to hear contains messages of positive controversy
Topics that are typically left behind closed doors
As you are actively listening to this work, imagine if you will,
The countless photos you have taken, which despite whatever pain and suffering you may have had to endure
You simply smile
Flashing your Fool's Gold like a Hero that's been through a War Zone that still knows he can Never Make It Home...
Yes you smile, Breathe, and pretend to Start Again.
And that's Where The Breaking Ends.
And how many photos have you taken like this that are hanging on your walls at home?
Be advised, this sound recording contains graphic images, provocative language and stories that could only be heard If The Walls Could Speak
But that's by far more interesting. Don't you think?
Enjoy.
2 - Breathe
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With cold hands
Her touch was all but warming to bone Just a gripping of a life unknown
Cause what is life, when it's only death What is life, when there's nothing left
If this is all, if this is it
Then there isn't much, that you have to give
Just go through it, cause he's not an it he's a treasure
A wealth abundant, yeah, too much to measure
Don't shun him out of fear under pressure
Loving him is a pleasure, it's now or for-never
With a hold that chokes you apart or together forever
Cause whether or not the weather gets better, this life linked to you like a fetter So take him or leave him


And you could let the fire rise
A burning of the world inside Cause when you let the light, ignite It's live, or die
Will this life make it through the night? A love that you could never find And a heart that's running out of time Cause when you let the light, ignite It's live, or die
Will this life make it through the night?
Waking up sick head hot like Cajun, caged In Not by choice she's phasing
A different truth that she's ch-ch-cha chasing Erase him! Not even you would want to raise him Cause you the victim, just evict him Walking around like lade dee-da-da yeah I kill him You don't know it, but just like a poet
You stage the front page to say you heroic That's not life, at least not yet anyway That's what the doc say to mitigate catastrophe So just sign now, dumb your mind down Trying to find your heart but it's a ghost town And the past life will always haunt you
Like a bad tattoo in the eyes of the world view So time to pioneer with no button for rewind Love and hold dear or leave it all too flatline


Hold on, dear child Breathe in, and know that you're
Worth more, that you're worth more It's her love that's not enough
We'll it's too late now guess you made the decision
Two hearts lost by the doctor's precision
Do you even know the horror of vacuum aspiration
Baby boy does, faced it, no contestation
No tag backs on foolish actions of past
Live with the guilt, hide your face, here's a mask
But no amount of cover up could hide those scars
You're painting up an end, but when was killing an art?
Standing here alone, while he held your hand
Screaming, "Mommy!, It's too late, to drop me and
Decide I wasn't good enough when the going got rough
It was too soon, or too late, just not enough"
And he's screaming out, it's blaring now, you're beating down, he's bleeding out Crushed him down with the weight of your self-centered ambition
With a grave for a crib baby boy makes transition
While he's begging you to listen, just listen


Call him no name, call him death, that he's know for
3 - Never Make It Home
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With all the pages I've been burning out I can't erase the truth, I've bitten now
A Judas kiss, with bleeding lips
A fearless world that tears the life away Would we understand if we were not afraid
One day I met a girl by the name of crystal
Her look was sweet, her effect like a pistol
But this relationship would soon turn south That's what happens when you put a gun to your mouth Had ahold of me, shadows all around
Dragging me into the depths I'm bound
Think I'm okay but that was just a lie
Sitting in my car with her love I'm high
Got no wealth, gave it up to you
Want to be a rude boy bang with the crew
But I get banged up, wasting away
Live for the night, die to the day
When I'm looking in the mirror there's two guys I see One looks like me the other I used to be
Could he ever go back to man he was then Could he give it all up and start over again


And I can't come home
Where skin and bone collided
Where the walls were met divided
I'm just afraid to find myself again, alone The hardest part of holding on is letting go I'm running hard, but I'll never make it home
So I'm sitting in my bed yeah it's four A.M. Alone with thoughts their out to condemn
A shadowy figure in the corner of my room
Is she an angel of light or here to consume She was here before and she'll be here again I'm starting to realize she's not my friend She tears me down and drags me away Saying take one hit it will be okay
So I burn the glass and rotate the piece
Feel the surge what a sweet release
My friend's gone now, I hope she don't come back The high's strong now, but soon fades to black And when I come down, she comes to fight The old me gone and the new takes flight Soaring above want this feeling to last Crashing down wish this feeling will pass
What would you give up if it changed you into someone your not You're only hungry for her love until you know your forgot
Cause the hurt never goes away
I'm not sure if it's lies or the truth you say But I know that I'm falling fast
Cause this feeling of flight that I had won't last
It's getting better but you know the pain will only get worse Would it be different if I told you that your life had some worth
Life force the price she came to drain Breathe toxic as it fills my vein
Yeah this road seems an endless one It's been a lifetime since I've seen the sun


Never make it home And I can't come home
Lost myself, who am I anymore Closing doors like every time before
I'm just afraid to find myself again
That war with myself that I can't seem to win Since I can't recognize anymore who I've been
Would it be different if I told you that your life had some worth
And I can't come home
Alone with these thoughts, I'm walking by night Cause I'm dead to the day and I'm blind to the light
I'm just afraid to find myself again
I gave you my everything, was I dreaming You came as an angel, but brought me a demon
Would it be different if I told you what you were worth
Who was I kidding I just couldn't see At the end of it all the real demon was me
4 - War Zone
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Waking up and the sun is dark
Setting out to tear this life apart
He said "better hold your guns When you kill someone
So go and name your scars
Cause the end is far
And everyone you love
Is free to go at the price of blood"


This is the battle between life and what's right
And all night fight, of holding to everything dear
When losing it is the fear, the message is never clear
To why they're here alone within this wa- wa- wa- war zone
For what it's worth we've birthed this messed up Earth
Little smurfs are dispersed with glocks set to burst
Going in headfirst there so submersed, can't be reversed
Unrehearsed they lived cursed or sleep in a hearse
Now little kids be killing kids when they from a different faction Warlord's actions chain reactions to their satisfactions
Fathers losing daughters watch as they turn to cannon fodder
But no ones bothered, but what if that was your toddler?
Sitting in their teeter totters watching the globe trotters
Foreign grave robbers arrive in choppers or air bombers
To take them away, don't think you'd be okay
If that was in your back yard or the streets of L.A.
From here to Bombay, there's no excuse we know it's wrong
So don't you dare close your eyes, this ain't no cheech and no chong
And when the bombs drops, soldiers shot, just see
The children eating fruit from the poisonous tree
Could be set free from the pain and misery


Breathing in and I'm giving up Guilty strong and I've had enough
He said "better take the drug
To become someone"
But I had welcomed death
And now there's nothing left And everyone I loved
Has freely gone for the price of blood
Must be nice in your sheltered society living quietly
No choice, it's either you or your family so who's it gonna be
While bullets stream through theirs seams tearing up arteries
A part of me sits and thinks who's gonna' stop this monstrosity
5 - Start Again
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Where'd you go, why do I even have to ask?
I hope you found what your looking for at the bottom of that flask Maybe if I still got high, you'd still be here by my side
Still love you now, but you love me less than you love your pride
I collide, with wishes dreaming you we're still here
You'd rather sit on your boat, bait fish, or drink your beer
It wasn't the birthday, Christmas, graduation you missed
It was the fact we can't sit here and talk just reminisce
Your on my list, of number one things, I don't need
Charlie Sheen, bad girls, fast cars, and cash greed
Starting to realize, why you where never around
Cause when the good turns bad you disappear not to be found What's up with that? How You gonna Call yourself a man?
Truth is you will always be a kid stuck forever in Neverland
I stop and stare for a second, as your name crosses my phone
And even though I don't pick up we both know I'm wishing you were home For real


You're tearing out our everything My world is crashing down again My heart for you is crumbling
But I'll turn around and love you Forgetting all those times alone Promises that come and go
I'm moving on, I'm breaking this
To turn around and love you in the end
Now I'm wondering do you ever think about me still when you chill
Is it for real, or when you on pills, please tell me how you feel
I'm sitting here alone by my phone just wondering where you gone
Please come back home, lonely nights spent up till the crack of dawn
But I got hope and I'm hoping you'd fix my broken heart
Cause when it fell apart, didn't think it would ever restart Again, I'm wishing one more time to call you my friend is this end
Or is it the rebirth of us starting again
For real


Maybe I was holding on
Hoping one day you would come along
Or maybe holding back
Thought you'd be here but I was always wrong
Cause now the feelings numb
And I'm drunk on losing love
And when the day is done I stop and wonder where the love has gone


Forgetting all those times alone Promises that come and go
I'm moving on, I'm breaking this
I'll teach you what it means to start again
6 - Hero
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I'm hoping you could see just what I'm made of
But seeing me is what I've been afraid of
I'm trying hard to beat the beast, but you to me is everything
And seeing me is what I'm so afraid of


There's no denying these feelings I have are here to stay
But I'd be lying, if I said I'm not scared but it's okay
I'll keep trying, to tell you even when words I cannot say
Hoping when you uncover the truth, that you would stay
As I try to form the syllables to tell you how I feel
Wondering if my fantasy breathe life to become real
My lips sealed, heart stops, eyes drop, I feel sick
You say come get me, I'm all alone, I'm lost, come quick


For now I just can't save the day
I'm falling out for you
But I'm getting in the way
And now
I don't know where to go
I hate to say goodbyes
But you need to know that I can't be your hero


You're the princess to the tower
I'm the knight in shinning armor
Trying to slay this dragon but his fire breathing stronger, I'll take longer
Then you might like, but hold on,
I'm trying to find the courage
I pick up, I press on, I stand tall, I flourish
I grab you, you grab me, we stand free, I tell you
I love you, but I'm scared, all the time, in my mind
And I don't want you to think anything bad about me
So now I'll lay it on the line so you can see me like....


Lying here awake I shake my fist another sleepless night
Mad at myself for not saying the things that's on my mind
In every dream I'm holding you even closer
In reality I can't even touch you I want it over
So here I come hold your breath cause I'm lost without you
And time stands still when I'm in your arms
And all I'm really trying to say is I love you girl
But I'm at war with me and I don't want to lose you girl
7 - Fool's Gold
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Fat stacks in my wallet, "cha-ching!" girls all up on it Cause my wealth be chronic my cars got hydraulics
G force lambos, money strapped liked Rambo
"I can't getcha whatcha want", Yo I can though
Gucci for this cutie, I spoil women with Prada
Gym, tan, laundry I'm all about my dolla
Throw money in the air hear them in the back "balling" Step out on the stage hear a thousand ladies "calling" Ha! What a joke what a joke
You think these ladies love you if you broke, nah you tripping
Happy can't be bought like this cognac that you sipping
You holla Maybach while you rollback
Im'ma show that You a robot hitting roadblocks hear your roar stop
You need cash money just to give yourself some worth
I really think it's funny you a dummy on this Earth Time to start over maybe this could be your rebirth


Climbing to the top of this hill
This bot won't stop
Money builds, kingdom ill
Chasing all the gold
Riding high to make it a night of coming to life Never fine, nothing's right
This is fool's gold
Insane is what he saying when I say it ain't bout spending Yolo to this bro though snap a photo he broke and fending
Probably should have saved now he's slave to this debt
Now I bet, this money ain't make him happy much yet
Chatting about stacking while you cracking off a cold one
You a broke son bank account done, watch them girls run I got wealth, not on shelf, you can't fathom
My brains handsome, welcome to the new anthem


You're chasing gold
Trying to rule the world but your chasing fool's gold Fighting for for the cheddar leave you empty all alone You're chasing all the gold
But you're chasing fool's gold
It's not too late to step back for a moment
Analyze the lies and what you call enjoyment
Idolize the pie but miss the real prize
Your soul is blind so try and see with two eyes
Cause you're missing out brah when all you worry ‘bout is green Your fresh new fade and the idol you call bling
That's a heavy thing, drag away your spirit
Cause there's more to life, I'm just wishing you would live it


You're chasing gold
Trying to rule the world but your chasing fool's gold
Fighting for for the cheddar leave you empty all alone
You're chasing all the gold
But you're chasing fool's gold
8 - Where The Breaking Ends
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She was calling out last night
With unsown wrists and her fingers tied
Painting pictures with a third hand
She was begging me to make it stop (stop)
But I could never really change this
Her tears had filled up all the pages
She asked me "Daddy, is it over? Cause I'm sick of all the closer's,
I just wanna make it out."
And breathing in, I saw her heart, beat slower than before
(This isn't how it has to be, you're made of silence, scared to speak
Telling me, that you were always meant to bleed, too weak to fight, you're giving up for free
But I'll, hold on cause behind the scenes, you're folding in, while on the screen
You're saying never mind)
Then she said "Never mind."
(Every time)
"I guess I'm fine."
(Just tell me why)
"It's just it burns inside
I need a reason for this life."


As you're breaking down Hope was never found
You were written by your mistakes
You're designed for life
But corrupt by lies Branded with a guilty name
So this is our Exodus
Our evidence
This is why we build it back again This is where the fixing starts And this is where the breaking ends
He was overdosed on pain
A see-through vest and a broken chain
Wrapped around his worth
They call it love, but it only hurts (hurts)
He said "I know that you can't change it
But do you think I could exchange this?
Sell a heart that's falling farther, every hit is hitting harder Do you think I'll make it out?"
And breathing in, I saw his heart, beat slower than before (This isn't how it has to be, you're made of silence, scared to speak
Telling me, that you were always meant to bleed, too weak to fight, you're giving up for free But I'll, hold on cause behind the scenes, you're folding in, while on the screen
You're saying never mind)
Then he said "Never mind."
(Every time)
"I guess I'm fine."
(Just tell me why)
"It's just it burns inside
I need a reason for this life"
Repeat Chorus


And tonight you'll find
A way to tear down the walls inside Tonight you'll find a reason left to fight (You were calling
Slowly falling
You're screaming out
As it's coming down)


(This isn't how it has to be. Don't be scared to speak.
You were never meant to bleed. Don't give up for free.
You're strong enough to fight.
You made it through every time. Just hold on to life.
Just tell me why.
Just tell me why.)
And tonight you'll find
A way to tear down the walls inside Tonight you'll find a reason left to fight
9 - Outro
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If The Walls Could Speak Thanks and Credits
Special Thanks from DJ and Taylor

First and foremost we would like to thank our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, without Him we would not be here today.

LP production thanks to Daniel Martin at ReAmp Recording Studios, Hourglass Independent Records and its owners, Kevin Tomczak and Stefani Rose, who is also our manager.

Thanks of course goes out to our parents Dan and Juvi De Neve, and William and Carri Foote. You've given us the motivation and inspiration to make this project come to life.

We'd also like to thank all of our friends who have been so supportive through this whole process, especially those at Saving Grace Community Church for all their prayers over us and this work. We'd like to give a thank you as well to the Lee family for giving us a place to take the photos for this project's art.

Special Solo Thanks:

DJ: To all the people who helped me keep my head up and get through school since Jr. High. Thank you for believing in my musical abilities and projects. It's been a long wait for all of you, so this is for you. Also, I have to thank my little sister Faith for all she is. You have always been and always will be the apple of my eye and staying strong these past years wouldn't have been possible without you.

Taylor: Matt Shapiro and Matt Mattera for helping me become the man I am today. All the friends who have supported me and gave me the confidence to believe in myself.

This was a long process to go through, yet an awesome adventure for all of us behind the project. We could not have made this possible without everyone's support, and that's exactly what we got. Thank you and God Bless.

-DJ De Neve and Taylor Christian AKA The FiiX

Music and lyrics by DJ De Neve, Taylor Christian, and Daniel Martin
Recorded at ReAmp Recording Studios, Anaheim, CA
Produced and Mixed by Daniel Martin
Mastered by Paul Miner at Buzzbomb Sound Labs

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